Fumbling Towards Ecstasy

About a boy who randomly posts but is filled with many thoughts, most of them ridiculous, some stupid and the odd one intriguing...

Friday, July 26, 2002

there is a fine line between compromising with your family and just not caring enough to fight to win. i think that's kind of where i'm at with respect to settling in Winnipeg in the future. i have no idea where my life might take me so i can't really rule out any geographic location but my dad and i have talked about me not living in winnipeg and how that might be better for our relationship. with my parents being so uncomfortable with my lifestyle, i don't know how they would deal with me living an openly gay lifestyle in their same city. and so, i just think i won't.

however, friends have suggested that maybe me being more open is exactly what they need to get used to it. that because i cave to them in not discussing it or making it an issue, they can continue to think that we can have a relationship without talking about it. so- maybe they need to have the issue forced? or maybe, i'll just move away somewhere and we can have a superficial relationship where my sexuality isn't so central? who knows?

i'm off to the cottage for the weekend... yeah! i love it there. haircut was yesterday and did quite a bit of fringing during the week. next week i get my hair coloured. steel grey here i come :)