blah. how to describe my last two days? blah. anyway, to recap my weekend... friday night trevor and i went out for dinner to the fat angel (probably one of my favorite restaurants here in town) and then came back here to watch a movie. saturday was the official day of laziness until around mid-afternoon when I went to the Mancini's place and started to help with dinner. we had a fabulous dinner party and then we went out to the club for a little bit of after-hours fun. sunday was church and pure mellowness.

tonight i'm off to a BBQ at AJ's and then off to have a drink with Michael Klassen before heading to Braemar bakery for a little del paxton action. i just never get sick of seeing that band.

i've been a pretty grey mood the last couple of days- mostly because i've had a lot on my mind and am still trying to sort stuff out. in edition, i feel politically impotent and excited at the same time (a huge contradiction i'm aware) because i have all of these thoughts running through my mind but can actualize so few of them.

the one nice fallback in being "grey" is that i get to retreat back into the isolationist and introspective side of me i have only discovered of late. i love living in my head (to a certain degree) but wish that other people lived in there too :) just call me the queen of paradox.