Fumbling Towards Ecstasy

About a boy who randomly posts but is filled with many thoughts, most of them ridiculous, some stupid and the odd one intriguing...

Tuesday, July 09, 2002

This story fucking scares the shit out of me. Not only because of the high level of unawareness about HIV in the gay community but also the larger lessons I think it has.

I still believe that being uncomfortable with your sexuality makes you more prone to getting sexual pleasure or exhibiting your sexuality in ways that you would normally not. I think lack of comfort in your own sexuality is, in part, connected to society's level of tolerance with your sexual preference in general. So, it scares me to death that our society's intolerance towards gays continues to keep too many men in the closet where they make unfortunate choices in their sexual life which can have deadly consequences.

In addition, it scares me because I have long believed that the incidence rates of HIV in the gay population are higher, in part, because of a higher incidence rate of being tested. This tends to cast that theory into doubt, at least in the US.

HIV and AIDS are so scary. I worry about our level of readiness to fight this disease as well as the social functions that contribute towards its rapid spread- these include both poor sexual decision-making, intolerane in our broader community and a feeling of self-denial that is so strong that is allows for risky and even deadly behaviour to occur.... yikes.